Alrite..u might think im very fickle minded or something but im jus trying to move on..move along..
This blog will no longer exist...it's moving to http://lepetiteras.wordpress.com just tot of trying out something which i havent...so there u go!

Anyway this blog is moulding..up to a point where ppl r afraid of viewing my post...hahaha.. ok im talking crap rite now..so if u r interested enuf to know abt my updates go to e new site if nt...whatever i dun even care!

Ok,wouldnt u feel anxious when u lost ur hp??...yea i bet e guy did..but i was feeling twice as anxious n uncomfortable as him eventho im e one who found it n nt e one who lost e hp... it took him 2 days to take it back fr me,how calm can he get eh..or mayb perhaps he trust me...but boy!am i glad tt i had finally returned it back to him..silly boy,lost hp oso duno n what more, he cn delay e collection..he's lucky enuf tt im a nice person ehehehe... ok la ok la.. i wont praise myself too much cos self praise is no praise at all rite?..=)And he kept saying "thank u" n "thanks for being so honest" etc etc...well if im his position,i'll prob say tt like a million times too if any1 found it n returned it back to me... c it's simple,i dun take things tt doesnt belong to me..i believe in Karma-what goes ard comes ard so there u go!

Anyway,my path is still nt clear after all this wait...i received gd news&bad news(nothing new to me),so now i have a few choices but im still nt sure which one to pick...advices aft advices,talks aft talks, one consideration aft ano/r etc etc...but i hav to make up my mind soon...sometimes i duno if i shd follow my heart or my head...sometimes thinking rationally can make me oh so confuse...n if i follow my heart,haiz...im just afraid tt im making e wrong choice!
Having choices is as gd as having no choice at all...in e end i still have to pick one!....sigh *dun worry,im nt talking abt picking which guy i shd marry hahahaha...jus in case ur mind wonders =)*

Ok..so i lied abt closing down this blog..i didnt promise anyway rite..hehe..act i wont close it down till i feel like it... =)
Anyway,been pretty busy with work most of e time..what more,tmr fongyu-a temp staff,will be leaving forever,she's gng to uni in august...will definitely Miss her lots as she is my offc partner le..but i wish her all e best in her studies!!she's one smart girl okie..and Congrats girl for passing ur driving test!!hehehe..i told u that u will pass... :p so when will u tk me for a spin??? *winks*...

Ive been pretty messed up these few days..been having tt "im-nt-in-f******-mood-rite-now-so-get-lost" kinda mood lately..n this kinda affect my close colleagues as well..i wasnt angry or upset with them at all..i swear!!it's jus tt i have been some troubles/problems/ issue/whatnot tt i have to handle n settle by myself lately..thus tt explains e mood swing(n nt forgetting e pms-ing hehe)...but my bad mood pretty much affects my colleagues as well...Each day i come in w a "black-face"(as if my face nt black enuf hahaha) or with a frown tt is super bad tt u tot u saw a bulldog coming into e offc(no offence to bulldogs lovers out there...but hey,pls tk pity on me who dares to compare oneself to bulldogs ok..ahah kidding)this mood swings cont for at least a week or so.. n each time they ask me "what's wrong?" i jus simply shrugged n walk away...i didnt mean to act tt way but i jus wanted to be alone...
but as a week past by,i know i shldnt cont tis "attitude",n they missed e cheerful/joker/ happy-go-lucky Ras tt they know e 1st time they met me...n so i tot to myself tt i shd nt remain unhappy anymore..at least for now...i shd jus take whatever obstacles tt i have in my stride n im sure everything will be over soon...n so i did,i decided to put aside my problems or troubles for a moment n think rationally...im definetly glad tt im Myself again for e past 2 days...ive been laughing n smilling so much tt i forgot how much my mouth hurts...hehehehe..

I definitely realised tt they actually care alot abt me n am concern abt me...i shd have known better but how can a girl full of troubles think str8 at tt awful moment i was in... But now,im feeling better n i wana remain this way,cos feeling moody or gng thru tt awful period really makes me 'oh-so-damn-tired'!!!...seriously,i would rather laughed till i drop then to feel lousy e whole day...it didnt take much effort to smile...trust me... =)
Another reason to smile is: Im gng to watch e world cup match tmr!! Germany vs Argentina!! gosh both r my favs now im torn,which one am i gng to support??hmmm*scratch head* oh well..2 is always better than 1 rite..heck,im supporting both!!but i Love BRAZIL e most!! Kaka i love U!!hahahaha...*kidding* =)*cheeky smile*

Im closing down this blog soon...just feel like it..
It's pretty redundant...
Doncha think so??....

I cant believe that e month of June is coming to an end..it's passing by pretty fast this month,so fast tt im feeling pretty breatheless rite now cos there's simply so many things/bdays celebration/events/problems gng on rite now. Gosh!! and e temp girl at my wkplc is leaving!! arghh.. one more fren leaving,jus when we r getting pretty close.. i hate this,everyone im close to will tend to leave me...haiz
Good things never last will they..ive only got memories with me then... =(

Anyways,yest dinner with Van.J, Van.W and Ena was pretty nice!...ate at Fish&Co-seafood platter,butter mussels,bread& shrimp salad!!...it was worth it and tummy filling... im actually quite glad tt i went for e dinner afterall despite me feeling down e whole day yest....they r still e same bunch of girls i know back in CJC yr1...hahaha..still so funny/lame/pretty/silly/girly etc etc etc... esp Jalleh!! she keeps teasing me n ena abt something n even called me Horny!!what la... hehehe..but i noe u were jus kidding rite jalleh??... missed them lots n yest was worth it as well... simply cant wait for our ClassT13 Outing on e 7/7 ya-more nonsense,silly jokes,girly talks,feasting and of course booty shaking at Rouge!! cant wait..hope nothing crops up at e last min *cross fingers for 2weeks* ahahaha...=)

But my mind is still not at ease...im still nt certain if im making e right choice...is there even such thing as e right choice??..hmmm...im oh so confused!!

Yet another fun weekends had gone by...all so fast!! it's true tt time past by really fast when u r having lotsa fun...

im truly glad tt fri's dinner with Grace & Richelle was superb!!... and nt forgetting,funny/ lame/ embarrasing at e same time hehehe..love u guys lots la!!!...tks grace for e Bakerz Inn cake!!it was heaven!! =)

And i enjoyed e time spent with my bestie as well,e lunch were delicious,e talks we had were refreshing,e secrets we shared were unbelievable,e movie(JUst my Luck) was superb!! Chris Pine is Hot!!...tt eyes...awhhhhhh...hehehe..we ate so much tt day but we didnt feel a wee bit fat at all!! ahhaha.. we cld even stuffed ourselves with Swensen's Crayfish pasta,calamaris,mango madness ice cream & choclate Float for dinner...cldnt believe we ate so much!! gosh!!... u noe, tt's what we both like to do-EAT besides shopping ..hehehe..Tks Min for e treat!! hehe..
But e best part of 'bestfren outg' starts at 11+... Bright lights,total strangers, smoky air, great company,loud music,heart thumping, booty shaking,gorgeous smile,free ride,cool breeze n of course,awesome ribena-sprite-so addictive!.... i enjoyed myself so much tt i felt guilty!!...Guilty abt what??hmm dun ask..and i c anor side of MIN... wah seh..pls dun do that agn!!

I jus dun get one thing!...why do ppl always judge me by my looks??!!...when i dun smile,ppl perceive me as arrogant/ stuck-up/unfriendly/fierce/bitchy etc etc... but when i have tt smile ax my face they still perceive it in a negative way like flirty/still bitchy/trying to fake it etc etc... GOSH!! what is wrong with u ppl!!...i cant pls everyone n anyone okie.. so if u dun like me pls Get lost!!... my smile is not worthy for u then! or perhaps mayb i shd stop smiling altogether...cos my smile can make ppl misunderstand me... GOSH!!... :x

I havent been updating for e past 4 days..obviously i was being lazy..hehe NOT!!..i have been busy at work tt i dun even have time to say:"Gosh im tired!"

Meeting up with Grace & Richelle today for a lil Belated bday celebration for Grace!!hehehe..paiseh ah a lil too late but i hope it's ok.. =) time for chitchat session n more lame jokes fr me!! hehehehe... :p

Ok,this sun is supposed to be fun day..for most ppl...tt's cos it's Father's day..(i think so..i hope so..hehe)U notice how Father's day doesnt seem tt impt..there is not much hype abt "Father" as compared to Mother's day...hmmm..but to me,my Father is important to me..Always...
It has been 15 years..15 long yrs-i didnt get a chance to celebrate Father's day with e most important man in my life..
Sometimes i wish i cld turn back e hands of time but i couldnt..obviously...so all i cld do was to regret helplessly...but there's no use for tt..so ppl,tk this chance tt i dun have n celebrate with ur Father...no matter what...while he's still by ur side....
N for tt,Happy Father's Day Mr Rahmat!...u r always in my heart..Always!...love U..

"Oh great. It’s going to be another one of those terrible weeks when everyone else around me is getting everything they’ve ever dreamed of, and I’m going to be sitting at home alone watching sitcoms and eating leftover home-cooked food."
Tt was what i thought how im gng to spend my fri& weekend nites!! but i was wrong...i had a pretty great weekend...

Fri's late outing with Azie & Erl was always fun,altho as usual it was only for a few hours,but it was a few hrs well spent!!hehehehe..HAd MaC for dinner & Starbucks Frapps for Chit chat session...thanks for e Gift Erl..she is so sweet la, she gave me my sooooo belated last-yr-bday gift!!hehehe.. realli appreciate it.... hmmp..but e 2 of them ganged-up one me,they teased me non-stop abt 'my monkey!!' nvm since im e oldest amongst u guys,i give in...c im sucha nice lady aye??..*ahem*...but thanks anyways for e advices too..u guys noe what im talking abt..*winks*...

Sat was twice as sweet n nice...despite having a bad headache i enjoyed my outing with u....*blush*...thanks for e movie & dinner & i enjoyed e talks tt we had @ Coffee Club-nt forgetting e yummylicious Fondue!! *drools* But if i ever offend u or said things tt hurt ur feelings,Im really sorry...i can be super tactless at times,or mayb most times..
But i wonder abt something...nt sure if i shld ask u..hmmm..

Anyway,U guys shld watch "she's e Man", it's a pretty gd show la...catered to both males n females & all those who love soccer,like romantic movies,love watching hot guys/girls(pls choose either one hehehe)-esp Duke(Channing Tatum)- he's super Hot i tell u..hehehhe... =)Dont believe me, go watch it! =p

Dont u jus hate e weather sometimes??...it's bright n sunny one min making u feel so warm inside-out n e next min pouring heavily making u feel wet,eekie,cooling & sometimes make u feel down...i really dont like it when it rains..make me feel like im down in e dumps! esp when im going out/work...so leceh(troublesome if u duno what tt means)lah!!

Anyway,besides e weather being a bitch today,i just hope e interview tt i went to yest will give me a positive outcome instead!...i really hope so...yest was sucha a rush hour for me,i recieved tt letter jus yest morning(what a gd way to make me fully awake eh!!)asking me to come down yest itself..make me panic sia..took half day leave jus for tt..last min looking for my certs & o/r relevant docs..n when i found out my time slot has been changed,i became more 'kancheong'!!..thank God e taxi driver was kind enuf to take me when he was abt to change shift..but e rain didnt help me in calming my nerves..n e mud soiled my new clssic black shoes!!arghh...altogether,i basically screwed up e interview lah.. nothing much to say oredi..lets just leave it to fate aye.. ;p

Qn:Does anyone knows e trick in ignoring someone without hurting their feelings or without offending them???pls do share it with me okie..oh,come on now..dun be selfish n ignore me hehehehe...=)

I think sooner or later my blog will collect more 'blog dust & cobwebs' n turn moldy..if it ever could hehehe..lately i did nt have e inspiration(*ahem*) to blog abt anything, somehow certain things r meant to be a secret for only me,myself&i to know... Yes,sometimes i am a Secretive person...didnt u figure tt out??..n this post is gng to be boring..dont tell me i didnt warn u ppl...

I Just cant wait for e WORLD CUP 06!!!...and Yes!! e opening match is this Friday!! *do e lil happy dance*.... i hope i am able to watch it n nt get caught by my mum for staying up late...u have no idea what she will say to me!!...but pls,u wouldnt wana noe either..so i have to watch it secretly!!(see, i told u im a secretive person hahahha)...
But what i really would love is to watch e match with a bunch of Soccer fanatics frens like i did e previous world cup!!...staying over at some1's plc/ kopitiam/ cafes/ airport/wherever tt has a tv,muching on chips,drinking soft drinks/fruitpunch & being able to shout "GOAL!!" at top of ur voice or gng "boooo" when e team u r nt supporting score a goal instead!! simply awesome...hahaha..let's have a slumber-worldcup-party ppl!!

Anyway,there's Movie screening at my workplc...it's called: 'Movie Screening @ Biopolis'... this month's movie screening r quite gd for eg: Family stone,Aeon Flux, Flightplan,Bewtiched,Monster-in-law etc etc... n best thing is it's For FREE!!.. get this..FREE & it's open to public... so if u guys r intersted in coming here to watch free movies(i must emphasis on e word FREE heheh)dun be shy to buzz me(as i cant seem to insert e Link here)to ask abt e timing n e venue..i'll be glad to tell u...hehe

Mayb i shld catch some movies myself since it's F.R.E.E muahahahaha.... =)

*EDIT* as of 5.22pm: Sorry folks...e movies have been cancelled!!and i got to noe abt it jus a few minutes ago!! Damn!!...so much for wanting to go for FREE movies...hmmp..i think the department who was incharge of e movies schedules heard my conversation abt bringing a whole bunch of 'outsiders' to watch e FREE movies,tt's why they decided to cancel!! hahahha...no la,due to unforseen circumstances they have to cancel it..sorry if i make u guys so excited abt FREE movies(ooo i love saving FREE..)...didntcha momma told u tt there is No such Thing as FREE in this World!!...Gosh...hahahha *end of editing*

Sometimes i wonder why i come to work for..ok obviously to earn 'legal' money for myself n e family n always not for me to waste my brain cells n time slacking away at hm dgn nothing...but sometimes i did slack at work!!(oh no!this is a major secret tt im sharing with u ppl) hahaha.. ok la ok la not like i always slack okie!im act a very hardworking staff..*ahem* but it's jus tt once in a while u jus wana "eat snake" or "makan gaji buta"(malay version)which means "slack n shake leg n nt do any work-related stuff"... yeah!so tt's where MSN comes in handy!!...hehehe..it is so helpful i tell u.. Im able to communicate with my friends whom i havent talk for a long time or those ppl im missing from overseas,i cn talk to *arghhmmm* 'some-ppl' virtually without having to face them literally(im a shy person okie)& most importantly i cn communicate with my 'favourite colleagues' thru msn..
We tend to have this 3/4/5 way conversation at one time basically jus to pass time during e less busy period..simply jus to talk nonsense like e recent Sg idol "nong nong ago" or talk abt 'whoever-we-bump-into-during-lunch-who-wears- awful-dress-with-equal-awful-stuck-up face',talk abt 'so&so is soooo charming/cute/handsome etc etc',and sometimes to share secrets,happiness,sorrows,anger with each other... cos we cant do tt face to face as e 'office walls' have "ears" if u noe what i mean..n some of e ppl here loves listening to other ppl's conversation..hmmp..so i LOVE MSN altho it always died on me halfway thru my conversation(which cn be quite important sometimes)..but i still Heart MSN!!! what cn i do without u... =)

With tt aside,i still dun get why ppl keep asking me this: "Ras!! why didcha put 'Married' for e status in Friendster?? u married already meh??!!" hmmm...is tt such a big deal to u ppl?!!... instead of "married/single/in a relationship/it's complicated!!"(what's so complicated sia)i hope nx time friendster come up with a better status saying:"It's none of ur business to know my status"...how abt tt?
Gosh...im still 2 hrs away from time-out!...n blogging make me feel as if im talking to myself...c what i mean! :p

Today im knocking off at 5pm!!! sooooo good news altho i only found out abt tt jus yest!..slow i noe but who cares!im gng off early *do-e-happy-dance* but wana noe e reason why i end early?well it may sound silly but but but....It's cos of "Eat-with-Family-day" at ASTAR..is there even such a thing in general??i tot there's only "Family Day" which can be every Sunday for most of u who r very family oriented(unlike me hehehe..everyday is a "Not-Family-day" at all ahahah)... i got a shock when my officer told me tt's e reason..wth la.. got any other "day" or nt for me to leave early agn??like hmm "ras-is-a-hardworking-staff-day" or "ras-look-pretty-awesome-today-day" or jus "lets-leave-early-day"!!hahhaha..i tell u if im a boss i'll do jus tt but then agn every1 will go over my head ah.. better not..:p

Anyway e Great Singapore SALE is ON!! yeah yeah yeah..hehehe.. im sure this is every woman's anticipation..like this is e day every lady in e sinagpore is waiting for!! hahahha..oh man,every single shops/malls/flea mkt/etc etc is gng to make lotsa big bucks!!... and every single husband/bf/real daddy/sugardaddy etc etc is gng to have a hole in their pockets/wallets!! hahahha...but then agn,even without e SALE,men will have holes in their pockets/wallets..due to e upcoming World cup!!!...Then we'll c who is e bigger loser..Man or Woman??..hmmp...

P/S:Anyone has Mary.J.Blige Songs??like Be without U,Family affairs n more??... pls send to me ehehhehe.. i love her songs!!pretty pls...:)

Im currently feeling really lazy..i feel as if my butt either weighs a thousand tons or someone put super-strong-glue onto e chair tt i cant even get up now!
Things has been pretty messed up rite now... it's like a lump of shit in front of me n if i get my hands on it,things will get dirty n messy..ya tt's how im feeling rite now! (sorry i grossed u ppl out with tt description :@p) cant help it.. only God knows exactly how i feel.. tt sometimes i kinda 'blame' him for giving me all "these shit"..but it aint "His" fault cos everything he presented us with r e true test to our patience.. n i felt sorry for myself for blaming "Him" Sorry God!! Only u know what im gng thru... im jus one emo freak la who is gng on an emo extravaganza trip!

Some guy fr MacD-NTU jus gave me a shocked!! he called me regarding a large order recently for some science event which cost $90+... i shouted:"HUH!!" str8 away..n he was taken aback by me.. hahah i didnt mean it cos i really tot tt i ordered $90 worth of macd's food without even realising it n worst still w/o paying for them!(furthermore my mind is at some plc else) but but but it wasnt me who ordered them but my colleague who went on maternity leave..she asked him to call me on her behalf to settle e invoice payment!wtf la gave me a shock can... n he talked as if he jus woke up,with tt husky,lazy voice(which make me even lazier than i am rite now).She shld hav told me abt it so tt i cn be 'prepared'...n i cld have talked nicely to e guy w/o giving him a shock too.. hahaha..but i dun like his voice..i really dont..cos he reminded me of someone i dun wish to think abt rite now..someone who make me wait for tt 1 damn phonecall/double-damn sms like a fool n yet none came in...MAN!So damn good with saying all e sweetest things in e world n yet dont mean it.. idiot!but e biggest fool is ME.. :(

Anyway 1 more reason to make me stay glued to my couch or seats today will be non-other than American Idol!! yeah..it's e battle btw Pretty-MacPhee & 'Retarded'-Hicks!! ahahah.. i love them both sia..altho i was saddened by Yamin who get kicked out last week..haiz..but it's ok! i jus hope that Taylor Hicks will WIN eventho he dance-retardedly but i love his style(nt to mention those white hair!!hahah ok kidding..i dun dig guys with white hair cos i have a fair share myself hahahha)Kat is gd too but she aint tt 'unique'.. but Taylor is really special n have an awesome voice..
i hope he wins!! actually i jus know he will WIN! Taylor Hicks will Kick u outta ur seat!

So i Finally met up with e M-Clans on Friday nite!...thank God every1 can make it altho 2 of them were late due to unforseen circumstances hehehe..no la,they had their reasons for being late but they still make it for our 'usual lil gathering'... tks tks...it has been quite some time but we r still e same eh..e usual hangout plc @ Starbucks,giggling away,talking n lauhging non stop(n lauhging out loud for me actually..hehe sorry if i make u guys embarassed eh..hahah),sipping on our drinks.. eventho it was for a short while,it was still great!! i Heart u gals!! =) *muacks*

And of course,i bumped onto van.J along e way...she was so engrossed with her conversation with 2 other guy frens(Shahrom & Ben)tt she didnt even noticed/hear me waving/calling out to her..hmmp.. got 2 bodyguards mah..heheh..but she saw me aft tt..we talked for a while..So congrats on getting into NUS my dear!! u finally made it..im so proud of my 'coffee partner' hahah..n speaking of coffee..congrats too on being promoted to Starbucks Manager!! *clap hands* but how come u get posted to Parkway??so darn far cannnnnnn...no wonder i dun c u at Lido no more..how am i gonna get those free drinks n cakes???hehhehe.. kidding..if im free i will go all e way to Parkway jus to visit u aye...but make sure u keep my Frapps n cheesecake aside like u promised!! :)

Char's bday celebration was a small n simple affair but it was great nevertheless...im glad u love both e gift n e cake char!...took some pictures n i think we make lotsa noise at Holland V Starbucks(i know like AgAIN!!) tt ppl who were sitting near us had to change their seats to either outside(e smoking area) or downstairs...hahah.. opps sorry but it's a public place n we cn talk as loud as we want n do anything we want..hehehe.. ok la i admit tt i was one of e loudest there..*blush* But neway: HAPPY 22nd BDAY CHarissa Kok!! may u have blessed life ahead!! love ya heaps!!

So after e bday celebration,me,min&ling went to Lau Pa Sat to eat FREE Satay!!heheh yeah cos Ling's fren was working there.. we didnt order much but it was yummy altho e gravy was tad to sweet for me..but i love e tenderness of chicken satay along with ketupat(rice cake)..wahhhhh..plus it was free!! But somehow i noe e reason why Ling kept insisting tt i come along with them..hmmp..tt's cos she wanted to 'matchmake' me with her fren-e one who is working part time at Satay Stall 1!! idiotic cn.. :x and those 2 sistas cant stop talking abt me to him..walau eh..they even lied to him saying that i was their cousin(as in malay-chinese heritage)n he actually BELIEVED THEM!!..furthermore he heard tt i was speaking in chinese to them.. Gosh..they went on n on abt how perfect it would be for me to be with him etc etc etc n tt i cn be e SATAY Lady!! IDIOTS..tks alot gurls... :<

But someone else took my hand n led me away tt day... ahhhhh that smile...

Im having a headache rite now!! any remedy??hehehe must be due to over-thinking(is there even sucha word??)

Anyways,there was a fatal accident @ Buona Vista junction..near e mrt station..on e 15may06 im sure u guys read it in e newspaper like in Today newpaper or Lianhe Zaobao/Wanbao(obviously im nt sure if it was in e morning one or e aftnn one cos i dun read chinese newspaper hehe).N i saw e accident..i was on my way to work,from e buona vista train station,walking down e bridge n saw so many ppl standing ard..then i realised what had happened..i saw e SBS bus,e driver, policemen,ambulance,i saw e trail of blood(lotsa of it u noe :x) n e dead body by e side-covered of course!! it looks gruesome n by looking at e blood alone i noe tt e victim was run down by e bus n dragged!! in an instant u cn noe it..(must be cos of CSI tt im able to come to such conclusion..cn i be a part of e CSI team??Pls!!) Gosh..so poor thing la e victim,an old lady somemore..haiyo..n now i feel really paranoid whenever i walkpast/drivepast/look at tt spot..e images jus keep coming back to me..
and to think tt i prefer to cross at tt junction instead of taking e bridge(due to laziness n old age heheh)!! but now im gng to diligently take e bridge instead if xsing e road.. :p

Ok,at last im gng to meet my M-Clans!! yeah...back to e usual Dinner at ****(tt is not a bad word but it was jus a 'blank' cos we r still nt sure where we gng to eat hehe),a lil window shopping,chatters n laughters everywhere we go,e usual chill-out @ Starbucks etc.It has been darn long u noe..everytime our plans was cancelled at e last minute..hehehe..hopefully tmr wont be ok!!...n pls remember erl,tt we do have to meet up tmr..not like last time where u totally forgot all abt it..haha..must be due to old age too aye?... :)
And e day after tt out with F2 to celebrate char's bday... which reminds me tt i have to go get her gifts today!! hmm.. there goes my 'Kaching Kaching'.... =o)

Greetings everyone!!..wat a long break tt was rite..ive rested 3 days in a row..lazying ard with my book,my iRudy,my tv,my cushion/sofa,my fav pillow,my bed,my pyjamas(hehehe),my snacks etc etc etc... ok,i rested my body cos i couldnt be bothered to go out for tt few days partly cos e outings planned were always being cancelled at e last min, my o/r frens were still busy w sch wk/exams,im currently trying to spend less(yes,u heard it rite since so many ppl's bday r coming)& basically im jus plain LAZY!!..

But my mind weren't at ease at all..it has never been(if it has,guess im prob dying haha..choy! i noe this is nt e time for jokes).. ive been thinking n thinking,calling n talking to relevant ppl regarding this lil issue i have... e dateline is TODAY but ive asked for an extension..im still not sure of my decision..e main issue is e-evil-lil-thing-call-money!!shld i take it up n go with e flow..then suffer at e later part?? or shld i reject this offer n find other ways to make my life more meaningful,fufilling n nt be in a financial rut,so tt i wont suffer at e later part of my life(altho i noe i might still suffer a lil)??? im still trying to find a way out..haiz..i have till this weekend to think abt..oh so confused!!

Most ppl asked me to 'give it a try'.. yeah sounds easy but it's not.. im e one gng thru this.. im e one who is gng to suffer n deal with this.. life has nvr been easy for me,n things like this shld be 'chicken feet' to me since every lil prob nvr seems to stop coming into my life, but this time rd it's nt.. i jus couldnt find a way out..im like in a cobweb u c,getting entangled in my lil prob,e more im trying to 'get out', e more entangled i get!! how frustrating...In times like this,how i wish im rich, how i wish money drop fr e sky, how i wish i have a sugardaddy(tt's sinful but heck),how i wish i could grow 'Money tree', how i wish daddy's here to help me, how i wish im smarter enuf to get a scholarship, how i wish how i wish how i wish... yeah rite, keep on wishing but im nt gng to get anything cos there's no such thing(whateva i mention above except for e sugardaddy part..hahah i might jus get 1*winks*..ok kidding)

Actually, in times like this..all i need is a M.i.r.a.c.l.e!!

Yesterday's outing to e Zoo was heap fun!!...altho i was feeling a lil dizzy aft taking my medication but i did enjoy myself afterall!! yipee..it's been so long since i last step into e zoo..

i hated it when i was younger cos of e poo smell from e animals,e crawling spiders/cobwebs from e trees, e 'surprise' u get from other insects tt suddenly jumped onto u scaring e shit outta u, e heat n e tiredness cos of walking ard & nt to mention,e funny poses that u have to do when u were younger... *rem posing for e camera in this&that manner in tt silly lil outfit that parents make u wear(well mayb nt ur parents but my mum always make me wear funny-frilly-dresses which i hated e most!!) and dgn that '2-finger-sign' meaning 'acting cute'...ok i was cute last time*ahem* so i dun have to do all tt 'chessy' pose to add to e cuteness hehehe...
ok back to e future now,i act dun mind gng to e zoo..tt's cos i can tk e heat,i cn stand e smell[as i often get nose blocked hehe],i wont get scared by those creepy crawlers or what not[e most i'll jus shout!]n of course i dun have to do silly pose[act i still do hehe]& wear that silly frilly dresses!! hehehehe... n of course i dun go to e zoo with my parents no more...but went with a bunch of funny ppl was definitely great!!n nt forgetting to mention,entering for FREE!!..ahaha..

But it felt like gng back to my childhood times once agn!! looking at every single animals & plant species i cn c..n going "ooooo", "ahhhh", "wahhhh" etc etc.. sounds very 'sua ku' i noe but tt's what u'll do oso if u were there.. heheh e zoo is pretty neat this time ard.. e elephants r smarter,e hippo seems cuter, e tigers were nt tt fierce, e pony & horses were simply 'charming'etc etc & e tram/train ride were simply relaxing!!.... taking e tram endlessly(cos we were damn tired aft walking for a whole 4hrs odd)since it was unlimited ride for $5 n being e 'cheapskate' ppl we were,we took it agn n agn..so fun!!in which we had kfc n ben&jerry's ice cream..woohoo..[c la how to get well when i ate all those]
ok ok i shall not blog abt my zoo-outing w my fav coleagues till e end cos it's endless..heheh.. in total:it was great FUN n i enjoyed it very much, thank u... =) too bad i cant upload e pics up here but if u guys wana c it'll be in my friendster or msn space...n where's tt??hmm.. go figure heheheh..

n cute Craig is out of 'so u think u can dance'..hmmm now i cant watch him no more..pls dun say he looks gay,cos he's damn cute!! but i still got Ryan to feast my eyes on..hehehe he's one damn good dancer n has cool hairstyle while im at it!! =p Ryan,will u be my Latin dance partner?? *winks* =)

Okay! so PAP won hahaha.. n yes i did vote for them..at least i think i did.. tt's cos i went to vote on saturday morning with my eyes half opened..i only slept for 3 hrs before that ok... but i rem walking like a zombie to e polling station,passing my ic & polling card to e preciding officer & putting an 'X' at e 'desired' box(or was it a 'tick' tt i put in??)n walking bk home like a zombie agn!hahaha.. wat an experience aye.. =)

The reason why i slept for only 3 hrs on sat morning??hmm.. tt's cos i didnt go back home on friday nite..i noe i noe..u guys must be thinking:"wat a bad bad girl Ras is" hehehe..i feel guilty ok for not gng home & for nt informing my mum..but i wasnt dng anything bad...I met up with e 2 "gao sistas" for dinner @ Breeks,a lil window shopping @ Marina Sq,slacking @ Esplanade,Cakes&Icecreams @ Baker's In and then it was half past 11pm-n i had missed my last train home... =( so since we r out late might as well stay out late a lil longer n go for supper!! we ate alot tt day & drank alot too..for all i rem haha.. since e o/r 2 were 'itching' for alcohol(nt ME okay!!im innocent!!),they decided to go to Eski Bar..it was a 'rough' journey but we ended up at Boat Quay-Eski Bar..haha e taxi driver said wrongly,he was really funny la..he said :"here,reached oredi..Eskimo is it??" hahahhaah he said it wrongly..:p
Chat & chat at e frezzing place for abt 3 odd hours..n thank god my frens didnt get thmeselves drunk!!.. phewwwwww... as for me,drinking Juices & mocktails was a waste of money..cost a 'bomb' okay when i cn get it for 6 times lesser at Food court or something hahaha..but it was e ambience tt was nice..really cosy n nt to mention cold!! brrrrr...

N i act dislike cold places(like in my office rite now)tt's cos im nt feeling well.. been having bad flu n sore throat since last nite..nt to mentioned lask of sleep n rest..but im still here,in e office,working n blogging at e same time!.. i so feel like gng home rite now..mayb i will later..
i need to get well..cos tmr there's an outing to e ZOO!!u c,e company give out free passes to e zoo,so why nt jus go for fun..anyway e last time i went to visit ah mengs was when i was 13/14 yrs old with my lil niece-Farah... So i better get well by tonite..dun wana disappoint my colleagues...

Great eh,of all timing,i have to fall sick jus when i was abt to go have fun and do some animal-watching instead(my fav hobby is ppl-watching u c)hehehe.. But i will c u tmr 'Ah-mengs'!! =)i hope so!

Wanna hear good news or bad news??? Lets just hear/read abt both okay?!

ok e 1st gd news is tt..azie n rich,haha..i will treat u guys to something when we meet up ya..
but e bad news to this is tt,now tt i said this,more ppl will come to me to ask for a treat! hahahah.. *i anint really tt rich now..haha*

2nd good news(to me at least) is tt i bought myself an ipod nano!!..my lil-slim-white-precious nano! =) n e weird thing is tt i even named it..well nt really 'official' yet haha..it's called "iRudy" for e moment.. *winks* oh come on now, pls dont say tt im WEIRD..haha(eventho i noe myself tt this IS weird) :p
But e bad news to this is,hmmm...im nt able to 'use' it jus yet...richelle shld noe why..haha but but but..im gng to get my hands on tt iRudy soon-spinning tt sleek wheels,blasting tt earphones and enjoy myself in this 'lil world of my own tt is filled with lovely music'!!but my first thought upon holding it was "don't break it".We'll get to explore that thought later, though.

3rd good news(when this shld be e 1st gd news ahah)is that,i received an offer letter from SIM yesterday!!.. yes that means i did get in and will be starting in e 1st week of July..
BUT e bad news is that,i cant make up my mind jus yet and to make things worse,i have to reply by 15May!!tt's in bloody 2wks time!! and to make things much worse than that is,my Savings is NOT enuf for me to take up this course... =( what am i supposed to do now?? oh pls dun tell me Loans,cos ive tried n it aint easy to get one and nt easy to pay back either....

the 4th good news is that my 5th sis ex-bf(J) is getting married this sunday!!! why am i happy??haha of course i will be happy for those who r getting married..marriage is sacred n really precious which takes lotsa effort,committment,responsibilities,love and guts from both party... I really wana go for his wedding cos he invited me n my sis..but my sis dun wana go..her ex-lover mah..e wounds still 'fresh' i guess hmm.. i duno but i told her nt to be,u noe, petty cos of e break-up n tt he found someone new..we shld be happy for him n everything..but im nt her,so i wont understand fully wat she mean..but i really do like J as a bro..i always tot he will be my bro-in-law instead cos he was e only 'sis-bf(ex)' whom i like..u noe wat i mean.. altho he used to tease me-saying im stick skinny,lack vitamin c etc etc- but he was e nicest..oh well, guess i wont go aft all..cos e wedding is in JB..hahahah.. no wonder my sis dun wana go!

Ano/r gd news is............sorry no more hahaahah..i dun usually get that many gd news in one day ok..
2 more days to voting day!!yeah..hahaha why in e world am i getting excited over this..*scratch head*

Ahhhhhhhh!! i was jus being 'greeted' by one dead cockroach at e top of my office cupboard!!.. wat a thing to start my day...hahaha..but fret not for i had brave myself jus now to use my bare hands to remove tt(by it's feelers)lil creature fr decomposing at my working area!!...eeeewwwwww...k nuf' said abt my most hated insect...hehe..
Announcement: Pls take note tt my handphone no(98610787) will no longer be in use as of 1may06 okay!!.. so anything jus holler for me at e current hp no alrite..im sure those who has it shld noe..n for those who dun..hmm.. too bad..haha kidding,do let me noe n i'll give it to u ok.. tks!

Now tell me,what is better than sex??(not like i noe how sex is..im stil a virgin ok!!)...hahaha besides Chocolates tt is!!..of course it's non-other than 'Kaching Kaching'!!!..hahahha...YES!! MOney!!... It's proven ok..tt money is better than sex..(without money u can get no Honey-a lover tt is) hehehe it ryhmes aint it... and yes im so super delighted tt im getting my Progress Package today!!!...*dum-di-dah-di-dah*
For e first time im gng to receive those 'free' money fr e govt!(what better way to bribe e community before e Elections aint it??hmmm..opps i hope i wun get sue for saying this..hahah)This is what u get for being 21+(and above)...so exciting...how much am i getting??hmm..dun wana tell u*pouts* hahhaha.. want a treat from me???*winks*

And besides e PP,for e first time too tt im gng to be involve in ELections..which means i get to vote(??).. i think so,nothing is finalised yet..but this is gng to be exciting...PAP vs SDP for my area..hahahha.. hmm who am i gng to pick?..too bad none of them r good looking n young n rich!!hahah kidding i wun go for such 'features' to cast my vote..tt would be so shallow aight!!... this is gng to be exciting too!!altho it can be sucha a pain in e ass like what my mum said..hahaha..

See, who says being 21(+) is no FUN at all???!!...hahhaha.. =)